A Ball Point Romance
A Ball Point Romance
Dave Wright
Dave Wright
I’m
a pen snob. It’s peculiar that someone with my poor penmanship is so particular
about the type of pen he uses to scribble on a page—and yet, that is what I am.
For years the love of my life was a red-barreled,
medium-built Paper Mate ballpoint with a blue fine-point cartridge. Her
thin-barrel cousin was too spindly; her full-figured sister was so thick in the
middle I felt like a light-weight wrestler thrown into a heavy-weight cage
match. The medium-barrel model was my kind of gal.
I carried her for over ten years, dutifully replacing her
used up cartridges with a stockpile hidden securely in my bedroom dresser
drawer.
Once, while traveling with family friends in an RV on a
cross-country vacation, I was taking a break from driving and sleeping soundly
in the bunk above the cab. Our two sons and the other three children travelling
with us were bored and looking for a distraction from the monotony of the Montana
prairie. Eric, our eight-year old son,
whispered to the others, “Watch this. Let’s see if I can sneak Dad’s pen out of
his pocket without him knowing it.” (They used to tease me that I even carried
her in my swim suit.) The kids huddled around Eric as I snored. My chest rose
and fell with the regular rhythm of deep sleep. He gently grasped the pen and
eased her from my shirt pocket with the deft touch of a professional
pick-pocket. Just as my love was being kidnapped from her permanent home, I
heard a familiar click as her clip
snapped against her trim barrel. That little click jolted me awake as if
someone had shot a .22 next to my ear. With the automatic action of a western
gunslinger, my hand flew against my heart, trapping the thief’s hand and
rescuing my beauty from certain humiliation.
By the time Eric graduated from high school, I thought he
might be mature enough to take on a similarly deep relationship. I purchased a
brand new Paper Mate—a clone to mine—and slipped it in his hand as he boarded
the plane to begin his college career. As I waved good bye I imagined my gift
crafting newsy letters home, essays full of original ideas, maybe even a
doctoral thesis. I waited a week, then two for the first letter home. Nothing. Finally I made a call to see how
Eric and his soul mate were getting along. I was stupefied to learn that my
heart-felt gift had been lost without a tear before the plane landed at LAX.
A series of heart wrenching disasters followed. First of
all, no additional replacement cartridges could be found—even in the nooks and
crannies of the internet. I had stocked
up with more than a dozen after my wife tired of ordering them one at a time. But my absence must have been noticed by
Paper Mate. Not only did they
discontinue manufacturing replacement cartridges, they discontinued making the
pen itself.
I found this unconscionable. I had no option but to file
for divorce. I bitterly claimed infidelity and sought punitive and emotional
damages. After all, I could no longer
work reliably—and substitute writing instruments gave my hand a cramp. After so many years of conformity my fingers
rebelled at anything new. My right hand had become a lump of clay fired in the
oven of middle age, unable to remodel itself. Additional compensation for
counseling and retraining was a must.
I was a mess. I was too young to retire. I couldn’t
abandon penmanship in favor of a keyboard and a smartphone. I had to start
dating again!
A
claustrophobic fear like being trapped under a boulder gave me night sweats for
weeks. But eventually I pulled myself
together, gathered my courage and told myself, “You can do it! You’ll be a
stronger person for surviving another of life’s brutal injustices.”
I started searching for my next true love on line—as I
heard was standard procedure for baby boomers and millennials after a breakup.
I gazed at pictures, imagined a body shape that could again fill the embrace of
my empty hand, and tried to sense the easy flow of ink to paper. I checked out reviews and looked up
availability of replacement parts so I wouldn’t fall victim to another nonsensical
fashion change. I sought durability. I demanded perfection in a world that was
content to grab a stick pen from a cup full of castoffs. Nothing, not even my
temporary infatuation with a slender Parker Premium inspired me to place an
order for a date. I needed to hold her hand.
I needed old fashioned personal contact.
I thought Office Depot might be a safe place for my first
dating experience in more than a decade, but I found it to be much like window
shopping in the Amsterdam Red Light District: you can see but you can’t touch.
All the ball points, felt tips, fountains and roller gels were safely secured
behind a chastity belt of industrial grade plastic. The tantalizing prospect of
beginning a relationship was, once again, just out of reach. My only option was
to take a risk and cough up the money. I
broke down and chose a three-pack pack of Pilot G2 Roller Gels with fine point
blue ink. I tried one of the sisters in the pack. She laid down a beautiful 0.7
mm line but she scratched the paper like a fingernail on a chalk board. She
just didn’t have the easy touch of my old ball point.
My frustration led to a frenzy of promiscuity: a one-night
stand with an arm-candy Cross, a fling with a trio of freebies flaunting their
skimpy company logos, even a romp with an old high school sweetheart—a chewed-on
yellow BIC I discovered at the bottom of a dusty drawer. They all left me empty
and unfulfilled.
I’m finally going steady with a Zebra F-301. She doesn’t
have the class of the former love of my life, but she’s dependable and doesn’t
waste ink dripping at every pause. I
doubt that I’ll ever propose because I don’t know if I could commit to another
permanent relationship. But then, maybe she wouldn’t accept me if I asked—me
being such a pen snob and all.
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Made me laugh. A love with a ball point pen.
ReplyDeleteThey just don't make them like they used to!